Finding the Positive

As I wrote in my last blog post, Changes Personal Transformation, I recently underwent a massive change in my path: I have returned to full-time work at a ‘day job’ and experienced all the mental turbulence of choosing that lifestyle after these past months of thinking my path was fundamentally meant to be about creating a business around life coaching.

I almost destructed this opportunity because I was stuck in a negative mentality, chasing my tail and feeling like I was sliding backward instead of pursuing my dream.

Two key ideas have taken shape based on this experience:

• Focus on the positive
• Recognize the difference between the path and the goal

The Positive

First: the positive. I was so stuck in a mentality that the job offer meant betraying my dreams that I almost walked away from the job. I felt like I either had to quit the day job or I had to quit my coaching business and give up on my dreams.

That trapped, either/or mentality, stopped me from seeing the positive in my situation.

The day job provided a sense of security that shored up the rest of my time and mental energy. I had been worrying about rent, bills, and the fundamental truth that you can’t reasonably have a kid without health insurance.

The job lifted those worries from my mind. I knew the basics were taken care of. I was freed to be creative and compassionate because I wasn’t trapped in anxiety and insecurity.

The day job also provided a new and positive community. This was difficult for me to see for a little while, when I was trapped in a mentality that the job meant a betrayal of my own values. But when I really looked around at my situation, I began to see positive coworkers, compassionate management, and a real sense of community. The job was a good place to be.

Recognizing the Difference Between the Path and the Goal

Knowing your dream is essential to effectively pursuing it. I knew my dream was to help people reach their full potential. I knew that with 100% conviction. That is my goal.

But that doesn’t have to be every aspect of my daily path.

The job has clarified my purpose. It’s been a catalyst to boil down what I want into short-term steps. This process hasn’t been about paring down or weakening my dreams—it’s been about finding the perfect fit. By focusing and reframing the choices in my immediate path, I’ve discovered what I actually wanted.

This has moved me away from pursuing a stereotypical coaching business model to examining my skills and desires to create the dream I actually want.

How I got there

Interestingly, I couldn’t pull myself into positive thinking on my own. I knew I needed to get there—I’ve advised so many people to do this, after all! But somehow I couldn’t see what was good about my situation.

It took a combination of personal friends and the treasured advice of a life/business coach of my own to see the value of the path I’d found.

The biggest message I received, once they helped me get there, is that you can’t see opportunity if you’re focused on negatives.

Finding the positive has meant that this transformation has been an enormous positive for both my business and my immediate path. I know I’m right where I need to be. And thank goodness for that. 

Changes Personal Transformation

It’s been a long while since my last post here on the blog. A lot of that has had to do with yet another significant transition in my life, and processing my reactions and perceptions of what this would mean. 

For a long while, I’ve been pushing toward a vision of how my life should be and what it should look like. I saw myself pursuing my dream as an entrepreneur, dedicating myself to living out the belief that everyone has limitless potential, and being 100% committed to helping people unlock that potential.

Somehow I got caught up with thinking that that belief and dream needed me to honor it by being full-time employed in that space.

I’ve thrown a lot of my energy into building this business, and have developed such amazing relationships and seen life changing breakthroughs with clients. It’s been incredibly rewarding in a powerful, affirming way. But my pursuit of this full-time meant that I was chasing a specific way of meeting my goal, my dream. I was always trying to find new people and was farther than I wanted to be from being in a place where I could relax into a situation that felt secure and effective.

I was so focused on how I was going to achieve my dream that I wasn’t honoring its full intention. And, like so many others, I wasn’t secure in the basics of finances to feel truly free to pursue what I love.

One day several months back, reality came crashing down on me. I realized that my savings were depleted. My rent was due, and anxiety about health insurance for myself and my child was reaching a near-overwhelming place.

And like so many stories I’ve heard others share about how out of nowhere, an unexpected answer landed in their laps, hours after finding myself sitting in  this dark place, I received a phone call offering me a very good temp-to-hire position.

I had to grit my teeth and go back to a ‘day job’ and let go of the idea of pursuing life coaching full time.

I have quite a lot to say about what this meant for my mental state and what this meant for my image of myself and my dedication to my goals. I went through a month of feeling like I was forced onto a path I didn’t want. In fact, for a long while I wasn’t able to see just how happy and empowering the job was making me.

I’ll be writing more in upcoming posts, but what this change has actually meant is that I have clarified the difference between the path and the goal. I’ve come to realize that I don’t have to sacrifice any of my deep desires so long as I stay focused on why I’m pursuing the end goal, and clarifying the ways this can really be achieved.

So the short story is that I have found ‘day job’ employment that is empowering and positive. AND that I’ll be continuing my coaching work, but in a slightly different way. I will continue to meet one-on-one as a coach, but will start prioritizing groups and workshops (online and off), which will allow me to continue fostering personal transformation.

I’m going to keep choosing my dream, focusing on what made it the dream in the first place.

I hope you keep pursuing your dreams as well.